Apparently I haven’t been walking correctly 🤷🏼♀️
A friend invited me to hot yoga tonight. Sounded great to me — I had rested for TWO WHOLE DAYS. So I agreed, but said I’d clear it with my physical therapist first because that seemed like the responsible thing to do.
The PT thought I was crazy when I asked her through gritted teeth if I could go. She was manipulating my leg, knowing that even the gentlest motions caused me pain. 100% no, was her answer.
I lamented about how long it was taking to get better and she said it would take a lot less time if I stopped fighting it and just let myself heal. My “helping” by pushing myself was counterproductive.
Resting feels like giving up to me. It opens the door to laziness and if I’m lazy in one area maybe I’ll get lazy in others that I can’t afford to start slipping in. I’ve swam in those waters before, and they are treacherous. So I’m trying to rewire my brain.
“These tiny stretches will be your new best friend,” she told me. “You’re working, you just don’t know it.”
I’ll keep telling my brain that. It might give me a hard no, though.
Crushing is so far.
As an active person, sitting back and doing nothing has never been much fun for me. I always feel my best during or after physical activity — whether that’s a 15-mile bike ride, a strenuous hike or a couple hours crushing it on the bouldering wall at the rock climbing gym. It’s my therapy and my release.
That’s why when I got the news that I’d have to cut all that out for a month to heal a tendon injury in my leg, I sort of freaked out. In terms of pain, I can push through a whole lot. So I’ve been pushing through this particular pain for a couple months now. But the doctor (and my friends and family) have repeatedly told me that I’m doing myself more harm than good by staying active. My body is screaming for me to rest but my mind — the panicky, anxious part of it anyway — is terrified that if I stop moving, maybe I’ll never want to start again.
So I’m writing it down here and now that today marks the day that true rest will begin. This is how I hold myself accountable and have a record of the decision. A month from now, I intend to be back to my active self on my horse and having adventures with my pup. In the meantime, I guess I’ll have to learn to become one with my bed and read all the books I’ve got piled up on my nightstand.
Who knows, maybe I’ll actually enjoy being a bum.
The past few months have been really exciting in terms of women coming forward with their stories and reclaiming their power. It’s been a beacon of hope in an otherwise completely frustrating world.
Of course, I have my own #MeToo story and I think there is never a wrong time to speak up and do your part to change things. This is a huge issue, and an important one, and I’m happy to lend my voice and my dollars to the movement. You can too by visiting the Time’s Up website.
But like I said, this is a huge issue, and while I’m passionate about it some people can feel like their voices aren’t heard or they have nothing to say at all. Maybe it doesn’t resonate. That’s OK. I’m just here to implore you to find something that you do care about. Something you feel you can speak up about or do something that can have a positive impact on this world.
One other big issue that I’m passionate about — and that I honestly don’t think is all that controversial — is the amount of pollution and litter in the world. Luckily, there are a couple of easy things we can do to make an impact in solving this problem. One is simply signing up for a clean-up day (like this one) or by being more conscious of the waste you’re producing. I’m not claiming to be an expert or above anyone, I’m just asking you to take a look at your daily routine and try to find ways to reduce waste. Most of the containers we use or are given are recyclable — so make a point to recycle them! And did you know that as much as 40% of the food we produce in the United States goes uneaten (NRDC study on that subject here)? Buy what you need and eat it! Cook up all your meat and produce and then freeze it, save it for another day and wham bam you’ve got meals for a few days!
There’s so much you can do and even small changes can have big impacts. I hope you’ll join me in committing to doing good work and helping our planet — and all of the people living on it — thrive!
I have a podcast!
After teaching myself how to use Adobe Audition, buying hundreds of dollars of podcast equipment, booking interviews and recording space, writing scripts and putting everything together and doing rounds of edits, the very first Yankees Magazine Podcast is live.
We talk about baseball, of course, have a few laughs, I interview the Yankees Spanish-language translator, and the whole crew talks about some of the things we’re most excited to cover this season.
This is something I’ve wanted to do for a while, and I really hope you like it.
And forgive any bad edits or choppy audio, this is my first time. I promise I’ll get better!
Links below (they’re all the same podcast but just in case one link didn’t work I want you to have options).
Y’all, baseball season is right around the corner!
A couple of weeks ago I was in Tampa for spring training hanging with the Yankees, writing some stories, ya know, the usual. You can check those out in a couple weeks when the season starts! But for now, here’s a story I wrote for the Spring issue of Yankees Magazine about the team’s GM, Brian Cashman.
Brian and I “officially” chatted in his office back in January — he’s a guy you frequently run into at the Stadium and he’s always happy to talk for a bit — and he was very gracious with his time.
I hope you like what I put together. If you do, let me know!
And please give some of the other stories a read as well. I didn’t write them all but my friends did (and I did edit a lot of them!)